不好意思 因為我的對象是外國人 所以就打英文了
請大家將就看看了
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To Cachexia,
I still remember the first time we met. I was surprised that you talked to me. There was never a pretty girl like you in my life before. I didn’t have any good female friend, and I didn’t really know how to be social with a female. Seriously, I rather had an 30 minutes presentation, but not had a chat with a lady for 3 minutes. But your smile was so shining, I couldn’t control myself to stay away from you. Remember I called you and Becca “Facebook” and “Skype”, and you called me “heels”? That was the first time I did that. I was not a social guy and I always thought a nickname like those was stupid. But I guessed I was just trying every possible chance to be closer to you. Every time I talked to you, I was nervous, and my English became poor. I used wrong words, wrong times, and wrong grammar. Sometimes I didn’t even know what I was talking about. And I often felt frustrated because I couldn’t think about something funny when we had a conversation. Driving you is the best moment for me every day. You are always busy and have many friends, and I am usually not on your schedule. It is good for you to have many friends. I don’t complain about that even though sometimes I feel depressed about getting rejected by you. But you don’t need to know that because your happiness is the most important thing for me. I want you to have big smile every day. You asked me why I always study. Because I want to be better than everyone, so I feel I am able to protect you, can help you whenever you suffer, can be a real man who is willing to take responsibility to the girl he likes and burden all difficulties for her.
I am a boring person. I am emotionless. My life is not fun at all. I am not tall, not handsome, not rich. But I really like you. You are not just my princess. I want to hug you…want to kiss you. Do you know how painful and jealous I was when I heard you going out with someone? Do you know how hard for me to suggest you to date someone and have fun. I always had to clench my fists to keep my smile on my face so you wouldn’t know my heart was bleeding. Do you know how many nights I drank because I missed you and I wanted to hear your voice? I always stopped calling after I dialed your number because I didn’t want to disrupt your sleeping. Do you know I set your coming call with “All my Life by K-C and JoJo” because you are the angel that I pray for all my life to meet? Do you know I was never drunk when I texted you “I love you” or “I want you to become my gf”? Do you know I didn’t care to drink Starbucks, or coke ice, or whatever? I just wanted to see you.
I always said I just wanted to see your smile, but I actually not just want your smile… I am happy when you have good mood. I am worried when you have headache or when you are sick. I am heart broken when I see you crying. You are the only person I care here. I don’t care what people see me or talk about me, but I care what I am for you. I told you that you are cuter when you get drunk, but you probably don’t remember I kissed you when you got drunk after the 2nd-year social. Maybe it’s better you never find out this because a bad man like me doesn’t deserve a wonderful girl like you.
But sometimes I just want to know whether you ever like me for a little bit. Will you be sad if I disappear in your life? Will you hate me if I break my promise that I said I will be with you whenever you need me? I lie many things in my life, but I can’t lie my feeling about you. I don’t know whether you will have a chance to see this. I hope you don’t because that means I may be brave enough to tell you all these face to face. But if unfortunately I failed, and you do have a chance to see this letter, then everything I wrote above was bull shit. The only thing I want to let you know is, I Love You.
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總算有時間將這封信翻成中文跟大家分享了
文筆不好 請大家多多包涵 :)
